It's about 3 days that i detect a hint of felt-tip pen ink in my mouth. Today i hate some milk and coffee with slices of crispy toast-like bread. They were like felt tip pen ink. Blue felt tip pen. Carioca Felt tip pen. I dunno if u ever ate a felt tip pen. I did. When i was four... and i will remember for all my life... BLEAH.
This afternoon i ate two M&Ms and they were like Carioca felt tip pen ink. Again.
This evening, at dinner, i ate 5 carrots... and i wonder why they were like felt tip pen ink too.
I HATE it.
I wanna ate someting, but i'm afraid by the flavours.

Second problem: our prime minister.
Why he have to be so silly and ridicolous?
I didn't vote him, i can say without worries.
He's only a clown. An horrible clown. Today he greet German prime minister (Merkel) doing a childy joke. A JOKE, FOR SURE!
He hidden behind a lamp and he said "Buh" to her.
He's about 70..... and it's a clown. I Hate Him.
I'm really ashamed to be Italian.



Well
I've created an account on Cafepress.com [link]
If u don't know what is it, i can tell u now : it's a place were u can create your own Tshirt, prints and so more and SELL them.
So, here u are my shops:
My AerisBlack Shop [link]
MY Morwen Shop [link]

When a girl winks to me i can't resist, i'm not able.
This time, Nmaetha [link] tagged me.....
I usually hate tests, but this evening i'm happy (probably cause there's Donnie Darko on TV).
So, here the damned test:


[x] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[x] I have many scars. ( i don't cut myself, I'M NOT AN EMO, I'M ONLY A STUPID GIRL THAT CAN'T USE KNIVES)
[x] I tan easily.
[x] I wish my hair was a different color.
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[ ] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[ ] I have/I've had braces.
[ ] I wear glasses. (i should i know )
[x] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free. (i want more boobs... i'm joking)
[ ] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[x] I have more than 2 piercing. (in ears)
[ ] I have piercing in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have freckles.
[x] I hate my dad.
[ ] I hate my mom.
[ ] I have a brother.
[x] I have a sister.
[x] I've sworn at my parents.
[ ] I've run away from home.
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.
[ ] I'm in school.
[x] I have a job. (read the previous journal, it's not a job, it's a stage)
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[x] I almost always do my homework.(did my homework)
[x] I've missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[ ] I've stolen something from my job.
[x] I've been fired.
[x] I've slipped out an "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[x] Disney movies still make me cry. (only wally.... and nightmare before cristhmas)
[x] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[x] I've glued my hand to something (to my fingers, to my notebook, to a cup, to a glass..... to many things)
[x] I've had my pants rip in public.
[x] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[ ] I've gotten stitches/staples.
[ ] I've broken a bone.
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[x] I've sat in a doctor office/emergency room with a friend.
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox.
[ ] I was born in a different country.
[ ] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I've been on a plane.
[ ] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[ x] I've been to Europe. (i'm Italian, LOL)
[ ] I've been to Africa.
[x] I've gotten lost in my city.
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[x] I've wished on a shooting star.
[x] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[xxxxx] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[ ] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[ ] I've gone skinny dipping.
[x] I've played spin the bottle.
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I've crashed a car.
[x] I've been Skiing.
[ ] I've been in a play.
[ ] I've met someone in person from myspace.
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern lights.
[ ] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[ ] I've played chicken.
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[x] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show. (just a jump to the left....)
[x] I've eaten sushi.(nice, but i preffer soya beans)
[ ] I've been snowboarding.
[ ] I'm single.
[x] I'm in a relationship.
[x] I'm engaged. (Let's hope)
[ ] I'm married. (i don't like priest. He do)....
[x] I've gone on a blind date. (it was orrible)
[ ] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[ ] I miss someone right now.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've gotten divorced.
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[ ] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[x] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[ ] I've kept something from a past relationship.
[x] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.( my first love was a girl and i like girls even NOW)
[x] I'm bi.
[ ] I'm gay.
[x] I've had phone sex
[x] I've cybered.
[x] I've had sex in public. (...)
[ ] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I am a cuddler.
[x] I've been kissed in the rain.
[ ] I've hugged a stranger.
[ ] I have kissed a stranger
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[ ] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world. (i'm not a scientologyst one, don't worry)
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[x] I've cheated on a test.
[ ] I've run a red light.
[ ] I've been suspended from school.
[ ] I've witnessed a crime.
[x] I've been in a fist fight.
[ ] I've been arrested.
[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[x] I regularly drink.
[x] I've passed out from drinking.
[x] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months
[ ] I've smoked weed.
[ ] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[ ] I've eaten shrooms.
[ ] I've popped E.
[ ] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[ ] I've done hard drugs.
[ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[ ] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem.
[ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[ ] I have been diagnosed with one or more anxiety disorder.
[x] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[ ] I'm anorexic or bulimic.
[x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it. (yes, with a terrible headhace the day after)
[x] I've hurt myself on purpose. (only once, and when i was 13)
[x] I've woken up crying. (often)
[x] I'm afraid of dying. (sometimes)
[x] I hate funerals.
[ ] I've seen someone dying. (i've felt someone dying.. i can't explain in wich sense.... )
[x] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[ ] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[x] I've planned my own suicide. (13 again)
[ ] I've attempted suicide.
[ ] I've written a eulogy for myself.
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[ ] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[x] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[ ] I own a plushie of my fave character from anything.
[x] I own a cosplay outfit. (SUCCUBO)
[x] I know what cosplay means.
[ ] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[ ] I own something from Hot Topic.
[ ] I own something from Pac Sun.
[x] I collect comic books.
[ ] I own something from The Gap.
[x] I own something I got on e-bay.(Demonia shoes, a corset, a trust tablet....)
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie.
[ ] I can sing well.
[ ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[x] I open up to others easily.
[x] I watch the news.
[ ] I don't kill bugs.
[x] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[ ] I curse regularly.
[x] I sing in the shower.( and i can't sing -___- )
[ ] I am a morning person.
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[ ] I'm a snob about grammar.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[ ] I twirl my hair.
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name. (BUT only because one of my screen names is "Myxeanne"!)
[ ] I love being neat.
[ ] I love Spam.
[x] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day. (orrible backup)
[x] I bake well.
[ ] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue.
[ ] I've worn pajamas to school.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[ ] I know how to shoot a gun.
[x] I am in love with love.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes.
[ ] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I believe in ghosts.
[x] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[x] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[ ] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[x] I love white chocolate.
[x] I bite my nails. (i had)
[x] I play video games.
[ ] I'm good at remembering faces.
[ ] I'm good at remembering names.
[ ] I'm good at remembering dates.
[ ] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
[ ] I loath lables.
[ ] I like action movies.
[x] I like horror movies.
[ ] I can't spell.
[x] I treasure my friends.
[ ] I think of others before myself. (only gygrazok and a few friends)




Well
I've created an account on Cafepress.com [link]
If u don't know what is it, i can tell u now : it's a place were u can create your own Tshirt, prints and so more and SELL them.
So, here u are my shops:
My AerisBlack Shop [link]
MY Morwen Shop [link]

I just don't know what to do with myself.. REALLY
I'm not able to find a job... Not, it's not that i'm not able, it's that there's not any possibility for a girl who has finished high school to find a work.
For example:
I tried to go to the university, but i gave up. Not for too stress, not for too study: for TOO MATH.
I like to call myself a computer programmer.
I studied C#, computer networks and Object Oriented Theory on the High School. And i can say with no dubt: integral equations is not computer programming. They can be usefull as THEORY for 3d art... but a 2 rows long integral equation is not usefull for any damned program. And if it, it would be usefull only for Math's programs, not for the most of the problems of the computer programming.
I studied java at University. I know it quite well.
I can reapir pc by myself. I change pieces, hard disk, processor, RAM, since 1997 and i never stopped.
Each time I send a Curriculum to a damned Computer shop (which repairs computer too) or a computer programming company they say: SORRY, U ARE A GIRL.
....
A girl?
....
Is not why i'm not graduate? It's only why i'm a GIRL?
A FUCKING DAMNED BABIES CRANK OUT GIRL?

However i didn't give up. And i continued to find a work. And i've found it.
A great job.
In a computer/tecnology shop.
It would be great... But italian politician created something called "precariato" which it can be translate as "we sign up u, but u have to work 9 hours per day for no money".
And when i say no money i really INTEND NO MONEY.
They will pay me about 1000 € for six months.
Probably u will think that every month i will receive about 1000 €.
WEL, U WRONG.
They pay me only 1000 € for the whole period: 0€ for the first month, 100 for the second, 200 for the third, 300 for the fourth, 400 for the fifth and 500 for the sixth, after that they will probably kick off me.
Isn't Italy a wonderful place where to live?





Well
I've created an account on Cafepress.com [link]
If u don't know what is it, i can tell u now : it's a place were u can create your own Tshirt, prints and so more and SELL them.
So, here u are my shops:
My AerisBlack Shop [link]
MY Morwen Shop [link]

Fuckin' Insomnia, damned Headache.
I usually have an Headache per week since i was 17.
Normal people can take an aspirin, or a fuckin' Moment. For me, the Moment, is usually as a fresh glass of water. It doesn't do anything.
Every time i got an headache, a fuckin cat scratch my head walls from the inside and a ghost stabs me with a rusty dagger just 3 cm above my eye (sometimes the right, sometimes the left).
Doctor (a neurologist) said that i've got to take some pills, but when i take them i fall in sleep for all the day (the first time i took them i was on school and i hit my head on the desk).
So, i can't take them without losing all my day.
I stopped taking them... These pills were only painkiller, not a cure.
I take some anti-inflammatory ones, so the pain go away and i can be "alive".
I don't Smoke, i don't Drink (only a saturday per moth, and the day after the drunk i usually DON'T HAVE an headhace).
The neurologist said(after 500€ of med checkups) that my headhace is the same one that the 97% of who have headache people got.
Unfortunally no one knows the cause.
But i still have hallucinations when i've got headache and i don't take a painkiller.
Rooms become red, yellow, light and walls moving and twisting.
If i Sleep with the headache, the dreams are real. I can feel the touch of the velvet or the wind on my skin. Somethimes i did some erotic dreams. It would be fantastic, if your head weren't crashing down and you feel as u would vomit two headed Dogs.
Enjoy the fredoom from the headache, people!

Well
I've created an account on Cafepress.com [link] .
If u don't know what is it, i can tell u now : it's a place were u can create your own Tshirt, prints and so more and SELL them.
So, here u are my shops:
My AerisBlack Shop [link]
MY Morwen Shop [link]

Well
Hi, everyone... I've got some good news.
I've created an account on Cafepress.com [link] .
If u don't know what is it, i can tell u now : it's a place were u can create your own Tshirt, prints and so more and SELL them.
So, here u are my shops:
My AerisBlack Shop [link]
MY Morwen Shop [link]